Open Thoughts

This is honestly one of the hardest things to do. I want to tell you of a decisive thought that is in my head. But this is hard when I have many thoughts running around and having emotions run rampid.

One problem that i have is settling for less and conforming to someone I am not. I did not realize this until last Sunday when some events to place that I do not feel is right to discuss at this time. But we as humans want to feel welcome and belong. We want to have this feeling of community and not being alone. I deal with this problem and sometimes this issue can cause me to have anxiety issues among other things. 

I need to learn how to be alone, better yet I need to find out who I am.
                                                     Who is Corbin?

 I feel open yet closed. I have had some past people who I have given priority in my life basically break me and i feel very uncertain about opening myself up to people. I want to burst open and just say what I have to say. I eel like if someone were able to look at the mental and emotional aspect of my body they who see someone who should not be alive. I will be scared, bruised, and beaten.

We all have our share of issues, the one thing we need to take away from that is that we do not allow it to dictate our lives. We don't allow it to control what we think, what we do, and most importantly how we feel.
If I allowed everything that has happened to me dictate my life, I would be in my bed every single day looking at my ceiling. We cannot let those hardships control us. We use them as a way of learning and doing better with our lives. We grow from it, We don't rot.

Decide Your Life

So I am currently in the 10th grade and for quite some time my mission had been to simply get out and start my college career and begin my life.

So I went through all of those hoops that were necessary to get in that position but things changed.

My school has the IB program and I firstly did not think much of it until I went to a mandatory meeting about it. So from there I have decided to go into the program and stay in school because I can benefit from it more than going in debt at 18.

For the most part I have received great feedback from my teachers, family, and friends because I had just told them about me graduating a year ahead of my class. 

But their is one person that had something to say that I felt was rude. I believe in self expression and not being censored. But I also believe in respecting someone and what they do with their life.

This girl was basically saying that I am too stupid for this program. She then compared me to another girl who is entering it and boosted her ego whilst putting me down.

Do not allow someones opinion about your choices have total effect over what you choose. The opinions only matter if you let them matter. You give them the power. 

Instead of simply admitting defeat and allow her words to hold a negative effect on my choice. I am using this as inspiration to prove this girl wrong and show her that I make my world what I want to make of it and she has no control over it. 

So remember: You control your fate and like Dr. Seuss says "those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind."

It Can All Begin Here

I Have Learned Something New Today

As I have just mentioned, I learned something new today. I have learned that each person, no matter who they are, has their own, unique story. We all have this grand perspective on this planet we so lightly call our home. We have a take on our existence and make something of what we individually think.

Some of us get up on Sunday mornings and go to Church to ensure that when this life is over, the next one is spent with the supposed man who created us. Some decide to make the most of this life because the next is very uncertain and unknown. And some are trying to find a way for us to be come immortals.

Each person has a perspective.

So why not make a record of another one.

Hi, my name is Corbin and this is my take on the universe.